Hello again. Here I am with some of my disjointed, ad hoc thoughts about belief... When I was a girl I liked to believe that there really could be fairies hiding somewhere among the flowers in the garden, just like the ones I read about in Enid Blyton books. I believed in the old 'they lived happily ever after...' myth at the end of every fairy tale. As an adult, one thing I hate hearing is the old 'everything happens for a reason' cliche. I do believe in laughing at how ridiculous life can be. I believe in a good sneeze. But only with my legs tightly crossed because otherwise.... Well, you don't want to know. Suffice to say I'm a 45 year old woman who's had several pregnancies. I believe that no matter how old you are you never stop learning, wishing, discovering things about yourself and life. I believe that so many things are overrated. And underrated.
I believe that I am just writing rubbish because I don't really know what I believe. I'm very confused. This will not be new information to anyone who has read this blog before. Ahem. I believe that what doesn't kill you does, indeed, make you stronger. And I'm strong enough now, thanks very much.
Of course there is the whole issue of belief in one's self. One of my major core beliefs has always been that I'm weak and a scaredy cat who can't cope with the grittier side of life. Time and again this belief has been proven wrong. See above.
Do I believe in God? The short answer is NO. There is a part of me that would like to be able to believe. It often seems that some people who do believe are able to accept and cope with the most confronting things; even death. They genuinely believe that it's 'God's will' and they're going to a 'better place'. I would love to have some sort of belief that gave me such a sense of peace and comfort. But truthfully it seems like nonsense to me.
You will either feel uplifted or slightly queasy after that. Or perhaps a curious mixture of both? You're welcome. Right. I'm off to take my meds search for fairies in the garden. Enid Blyton and Karen Carpenter couldn't be wrong. Could they? Linking up for Conversations Over Coffeeand IBOT What do you believe in?
Today I bring to you ten things I believe. A serious version and a silly one. Because I can never be all serious and deep and meaningful on this blog. Well, not very often, anyway. Ten Things I Believe: Serious Version 1. Be kind. You know that internet meme about how everybody has an internal struggle you know nothing about? THAT. Basically just be kind. Don't be a dick also works here. 2. Introverts are awesome! Well, duh. I'm super duper introverted and just look how awesome I am!
3. When you're dead, you're dead. I don't believe in God or heaven. I think it's the same as before you were born. You just don't exist anymore. You'd think this belief might give me some sense of urgency to do something with my life beyond EAT ALL THE CAKE. Apparently not. Oops. Having said all of the above, I still reserve the right to believe in Emergency God. You know, when you're suddenly in a crisis and you start praying "Please god, let everything be okay..." There were certainly many times I prayed to a God I don't even believe in during my breast cancer experience. I just can't say 'journey'. 4. Family is everything. I am so very lucky to have such a beautiful family and extended family. They mean the world to me. I LOVE them so much. And I'd also love them to leave me alone now and again. See point number 2. Ahem. 5. You don't have to like or be liked by everyone. It took me a while to figure this one out. Some people won't ever like you no matter what. You could give them a yacht and a million dollars and they still won't like you. Although, if you want to test that theory I'm open to offers. I'd prefer a mansion and two million dollars, thanks. I promise I'll like you! Probably.
6. You wouldn't worry about what others thought of you if you knew how seldom they did. This one is courtesy of Dr Phil and fits in with the previous point. At least I got something out of hours of my life watching his show that I'll never get back. 7. Happiness isn't the natural state for human beings a hundred percent of the time. I read a book called The Happiness Trap by Russ Harris and it completely changed my way of thinking about happiness. Truthfully, happiness is just one of the gamut of emotions that everyone experiences during their lifetime. Nobody feels blissfully happy and contented every single second of every day, no matter what the highlight reels on their social media look like. 8. What some one thinks of you is none of your business. Related: if you happen to think my blog sucks I'd prefer not to know. Just click away... Oh wait. Judging by the paltry amount of folk reading here, this is already happening. Sigh. 9. I'm in no competition with no one. This is yet another internet meme. But whatever works, right? This resonates with me.
10. Letting go of the notion of having high self-esteem or self-confidence. This is another light-bulb moment courtesy of The Happiness Trap. The idea is that you stop judging yourself as a person. This is still something that I fall back into from time to time and have to keep reminding myself. Upon reflection it appears that I have gleaned a lot of wisdom from internet memes. Who said Facebook can't be educational and enlightening? Ten Things I Believe: Silly Version 1. Mornings suck. I remember thinking that there should have actually been laws invented against getting up in the mornings before you were ready. That's how much my body protested against it. Mind you, I was having this thought in my late teens and early 20's. So you can imagine how eager I am to jump out of bed in my mid 40's.
2. Cake should be the sixth food group. Sure, it's fattening and terribly bad for you. Details! 3. Ditto chocolate. 4. I believe in laughing at yourself and trying to see the funny side of stuff even when life is a tiny bit shit. 5. There should be Carpenters music piped at a loud volume through every shopping centre and public place. Then every one else would vacate the premises in horror and this introvert would have it all to herself! Genius! 6. Weight should be like height. You get to your most healthy weight for your height and it stays there permanently no matter what you eat. Why didn't I design the human body? 7. I believe in sleeping-in. This is pretty self-explanatory. See point number 1. 8. I believe I can fly. I believe I can touch the sky... Okay, not really. But I DO believe that's one of the most annoying songs EVER. Says the woman who can listen to Carpenters songs about birds suddenly appearing and every sha la la la ad nauseam. Ahem. 9. I believe there should be a dinner fairy. And a washing up fairy. And a housework fairy... And just fairies in general. And unicorns. Basically what I'm saying is I believe in wine. Shut up.
10. I believe I am all believed out. I believe I need a lie down. Linking up for I Must Confess. What do YOU believe?
Hello! I'm Ness. Mum of three, Karen Carpenter obsessed nerd and quiet, shy, Aspergirl. Usually found in my own little World...Which is why I invented one. Thanks for stopping by!
